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Hey Jared,
I guess we haven't formally met yet, but that's probably for the best. Given that most people who have met me haven't really liked who they saw. You know how people talk about how they aren't "cut out for" something. Like tennis or being a police officer? Well I'm starting to think that maybe I'm just not cut out for this whole friend thing. You see, I have this one girl, let's call her.. Elle. And Elle is my everything. But besides Elle, I really don't have anybody. I have a lot of people I know- sure, but that's about it. There are a handful of people who do reach out but I push them away, and then the whole population of people who never even think of me anymore. I've always been the person who reached out, that was my thing. To anyone at any time. But now here I am. Sitting in misery. Just coming to terms with the fact that no matter what I do or how hard I try, it's just not going to happen. No one is going to check in, because no one even cares to. I could be getting bad again and no one would even realize. I could disappear and no one would even realize. I don't know anymore J, it's getting lonely here.