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Hey Jared,
Pre meeting thoughts. My stomach is in knots. I can't eat. I could throw up and I've already gotten sick in another form about 30 minutes ago. I want to stay home. I want to wrap myself up in a blanket cocoon and never leave. Or emerge once I have a college degree and a job lined up. I don't understand how I am supposed to save lives if I can barely save myself. It feels  as if I've been shot and all my confidence and strength is just slowly leaking out of me. How does someone stay composed in a shell casing of gun powder. I am one move away from blowing up and I am scared of when that will happen and who I will take down with the shrapnel. -T